I'm so happy to finally be able to put 2013 behind me and start 2014 with a fresh outlook of good things to come. As I mentioned in my last few posts, these last several weeks were pretty rough for me, but I'm looking forward to the new year as a fresh start like the fluffy white layer of snow that fell this morning. I'm not one for making resolutions; but I hope to continue (and get back to) many of the goals and efforts on which I started back in 2013.
I'm also gearing up for my trip to London this February to participate in the misophonia fMRI study. As excited as I am about getting the official go ahead to be a participant, knowing that I can do my part to help researchers learn more about misophonia, every now and then I think to myself, "I can't believe I'm actually going to be deliberately exposing myself to triggers in a situation where I have to control myself to remain completely still." I've experienced three MRI's over the past six and a half years with no problem, the most recent being last March when I had a 3D MRI scan of my brain. I don't have any issues with MRI scans. Usually, I just close my eyes and listen - sometimes to music but when that's not available, just to the different tones and patterns that the machine makes. Knowing that my reflex reaction to whistling is to instinctively put my fingers in my ears, it will be interesting to see how I feel/react when I'm exposed to triggers knowing that I can't move a muscle during the tests. Sometimes I joke to myself that if my reflex reaction is too strong, they may need to strap my wrists down during the tests. LOL! At least I know that I'll be there for a couple of days for me to decompress after the tests too, so I can take advantage of enjoying afternoon teas afterwards (a relaxing treat I've missed so much since moving to the Midwest) and maybe even go for a spa treatment or two to unwind.
Although I also mentioned in a previous post that I was thinking about NBF treatments at a local facility recommended by a friend, given how much I can already predict I'm going to be spending to travel for the London study, not to mention that I didn't get a raise this year or much of a bonus, I'm going to have to take it one day at a time when figuring out if I can afford to do that right now. I know that NFB usually requires multiple sessions and since NFB is excluded from my company's health insurance policy, I'll have to play it by ear whether or not I can pursue it as soon as I thought I would. (I was accepted into the study after having a conversation with the NFB facility.) We'll see how the year progresses and what new treatment revelations may appear as the months go by.
Of course, there's also work on my memoir which, if all goes as planned, I hope to complete soon after the London trip. Many people (including three agents) have already expressed interest in it and it's about time that I wrap it all up. (That's my biggest goal this year.)
I have so many other goals and ideas to help promote general awareness about misophonia, possible research topics, and other ways to help other sufferers and connected people alike - too many to list here - but as each thing comes to fruition, I'm make sure that I post it here first! Of course, I also need to get better about using the SenseHaven twitter feed more fully, but one step at a time. I want to make sure that I am walking steadily along the path of this misophonia journey, and not stretching myself so thin that I trip along the way.
With that said, I do want to thank all the regular readers who come to this site, as well as the new ones who join us along the way. (Welcome!) I consider you all a part of this journey for relief from misophonia (like Dorothy with an ever expanding entourage); and whenever I read comments in response to blog entries or even emailed directly to me through the Contact Form, your words energize me to continue this journey.
Best wishes for the New Year. I hope you all have a happy, healthy, and trigger-free 2014 (and beyond)! :-)