So, I don't normally remember my dreams unless they were traumatic or unusually bizarre; but I will say that last night was the first time I've ever dreamt about misophonia.
I don't remember the majority of the dream other than the fact that the majority of it was located in an attic in the house where I first grew up (but haven't lived there in over thirty years). It's even weirder because the attic in the dream was very livable - completely furnished like a bedroom - whereas the one in my house as a child was just for storage, with exposed fiberglass insulation between the open beams.
Anyway, I just remember sitting at a table in that attic (not sure what I was doing there at the time), and a former colleague (someone with whom I worked over fifteen years ago) started whistling right behind me. My dream self was completely enraged and yelled at her to stop. What's weird is that I've never known her to ever whistle and in real life I've never reacted so angrily to a trigger before. Usually, I'd either walk away, put my earplugs in, or discretely try to ask the triggerer to stop.
I don't know what the dream means. Perhaps it was because yesterday afternoon I watched a YouTube video by Josh Furnas of a dramatization of what it's like to have misophonia and saw him yelling at the triggerer, albeit it was clear that the yelling was an artistic way of portraying what was happening in his mind. (Thank goodness it just had soothing music in the background instead of actual sound effects of the eating triggers he portrayed.) Perhaps after seeing that video, my subconscious wanted to release decades of bottled up frustration to misophonia triggers, even if it was only being released in a dream.
Is this just the beginning of my subconscious trying to communicate to my conscious self about our misophonia? Will the more I learn on my journey open that subconscious dialogue even further?
I don't remember the majority of the dream other than the fact that the majority of it was located in an attic in the house where I first grew up (but haven't lived there in over thirty years). It's even weirder because the attic in the dream was very livable - completely furnished like a bedroom - whereas the one in my house as a child was just for storage, with exposed fiberglass insulation between the open beams.
Anyway, I just remember sitting at a table in that attic (not sure what I was doing there at the time), and a former colleague (someone with whom I worked over fifteen years ago) started whistling right behind me. My dream self was completely enraged and yelled at her to stop. What's weird is that I've never known her to ever whistle and in real life I've never reacted so angrily to a trigger before. Usually, I'd either walk away, put my earplugs in, or discretely try to ask the triggerer to stop.
I don't know what the dream means. Perhaps it was because yesterday afternoon I watched a YouTube video by Josh Furnas of a dramatization of what it's like to have misophonia and saw him yelling at the triggerer, albeit it was clear that the yelling was an artistic way of portraying what was happening in his mind. (Thank goodness it just had soothing music in the background instead of actual sound effects of the eating triggers he portrayed.) Perhaps after seeing that video, my subconscious wanted to release decades of bottled up frustration to misophonia triggers, even if it was only being released in a dream.
Is this just the beginning of my subconscious trying to communicate to my conscious self about our misophonia? Will the more I learn on my journey open that subconscious dialogue even further?
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