It's hard to believe that we're already in the middle of July and it's been nearly two months since I resigned from my prior firm. My Vegas life seems so far behind me and yet, despite loving my new environment at work and in my new abode, there are some things I miss - like my friends and colleagues. It's hard starting from scratch so often in such a short time.
Here I am, trying to take advantage of a writer's MeetUp, but found that my misophonia wasn't allowing me to feel comfortable sitting with the rest of the group. It doesn't help that they're all college students much younger than me - so I feel out of place - but between the guys bouncing their legs and the woman next to me triggering me just by the motion of her raising her cup of tea and glass of water... I was very grateful that there were no outlets where the group was sitting so I could make an excuse to go to the other side of the room to do my writing. (I like the Thursday group better. Quieter location and everyone was focused on writing, not chit chatting.)
It's been a slow process getting settled into my new location. Still too many boxes to unpack, pictures to hang, and the long hours at the office (13+ every day) as a managing partner trying to get up to speed doesn't make it easy to settle into my place. I find that I need to push myself on the weekends so that I don't get complacent at home trying to avoid trigger situations in the public realm. It's tough though. Three huge moves by myself in less than a year - two of which being cross country - drained a lot out of me. Add the stresses of a managing partner position at work and my misophonia trigger sensitivities have escalated quite a bit.
I know I need to get back into the swing of mindfulness meditation or doing something to energize me and release pent-up stresses. I also need to start pursuing potential doctors again with whom I can try to work on my misophonia issues. It will be interesting trying to coordinate that effort while having so many responsibilities in my new position but if I want to find relief from my misophonia, I can't stop my quest.
I followed-up with the researcher of the fMRI study that I went to London to be a participant last year. Evidently, they finally got enough people to participate in the study (sufferers and control group too), so hopefully, the results of the study will become available in the late fall / early winter this year. As soon as I hear something, I'll definitely share what I find out.
Here I am, trying to take advantage of a writer's MeetUp, but found that my misophonia wasn't allowing me to feel comfortable sitting with the rest of the group. It doesn't help that they're all college students much younger than me - so I feel out of place - but between the guys bouncing their legs and the woman next to me triggering me just by the motion of her raising her cup of tea and glass of water... I was very grateful that there were no outlets where the group was sitting so I could make an excuse to go to the other side of the room to do my writing. (I like the Thursday group better. Quieter location and everyone was focused on writing, not chit chatting.)
It's been a slow process getting settled into my new location. Still too many boxes to unpack, pictures to hang, and the long hours at the office (13+ every day) as a managing partner trying to get up to speed doesn't make it easy to settle into my place. I find that I need to push myself on the weekends so that I don't get complacent at home trying to avoid trigger situations in the public realm. It's tough though. Three huge moves by myself in less than a year - two of which being cross country - drained a lot out of me. Add the stresses of a managing partner position at work and my misophonia trigger sensitivities have escalated quite a bit.
I know I need to get back into the swing of mindfulness meditation or doing something to energize me and release pent-up stresses. I also need to start pursuing potential doctors again with whom I can try to work on my misophonia issues. It will be interesting trying to coordinate that effort while having so many responsibilities in my new position but if I want to find relief from my misophonia, I can't stop my quest.
I followed-up with the researcher of the fMRI study that I went to London to be a participant last year. Evidently, they finally got enough people to participate in the study (sufferers and control group too), so hopefully, the results of the study will become available in the late fall / early winter this year. As soon as I hear something, I'll definitely share what I find out.
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