So, heaven at work was short lived. As much as Monday was awesome not having to wear earplugs or headphones, yesterday and today was back to usual with the sounds of soda cans popping, wrappers crinkling, people whistling etc. [Sigh!] Maybe I'll luck out and no one will come into the office this coming Monday either. I did speak to our HR person to see if we can figure out a better location for me where my misophonia won't be triggered as much. It's not going to be easy, given the "lay(out) of the land" but I'm happy that my firm may be willing to help me make my work environment more bearable.
Last night, while flipping through the channels trying to fall asleep (despite still being on a caffeine high so many hours after having a large latte earlier that morning), I came across an episode where David Letterman was interviewing the members of Led Zepplin. Every time the camera switched to a full-shot of the stage, showing all the band members as well as Dave, I noticed that one of the band members would not stop tapping his foot - even while his colleagues were doing the talking. It was very strange because usually I only remember being bothered by sound triggers on TV but this was definitely one of my regular visual triggers that usually bothers me at work or at a restaurant. As I was watching the show (careful to look away any time they pulled back to a full-stage shot), it made me think about the Mayo neurologist's comment about my triggers being situational. It occurred to me that I may not have answered his question correctly when he asked if I was bothered by the same triggers if I did them. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that if I'm conscious that I'm doing a trigger (like tapping my foot), I stop myself from doing it. Maybe I am bothered by my own trigger actions but just never thought about it because I can control them.
Perhaps something to ask the neuro-otologist when I meet with him next Wednesday...
Last night, while flipping through the channels trying to fall asleep (despite still being on a caffeine high so many hours after having a large latte earlier that morning), I came across an episode where David Letterman was interviewing the members of Led Zepplin. Every time the camera switched to a full-shot of the stage, showing all the band members as well as Dave, I noticed that one of the band members would not stop tapping his foot - even while his colleagues were doing the talking. It was very strange because usually I only remember being bothered by sound triggers on TV but this was definitely one of my regular visual triggers that usually bothers me at work or at a restaurant. As I was watching the show (careful to look away any time they pulled back to a full-stage shot), it made me think about the Mayo neurologist's comment about my triggers being situational. It occurred to me that I may not have answered his question correctly when he asked if I was bothered by the same triggers if I did them. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that if I'm conscious that I'm doing a trigger (like tapping my foot), I stop myself from doing it. Maybe I am bothered by my own trigger actions but just never thought about it because I can control them.
Perhaps something to ask the neuro-otologist when I meet with him next Wednesday...
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