Despite all the frustrations of having to deal with my misophonia day after day, life outside of triggers still goes on. I'm not happy about not having posted for a while but let's just say it's been a rough week physically (got sick) and mentally (mainly work-related issues). I won't go into detail about my work frustrations. It's just another situation where I'm being set up to fail at my firm by having to do the work of three people with no possibility of ever getting help. I'll stop right there though, for fear of venting on issues that don't relate to misophonia. All I can say is thank goodness the week is over, especially since I got a new cell phone and haven't set up my work email on it yet. Hopefully that should allow me a tiny possibility to not think about the office this weekend. (It's a long shot, but one can always hope...)
Misophonia-wise, it was a pretty status-quo week for me other than this evening being our office's holiday party for our clients. A couple of people at the festivities who knew about my misophonia asked me if the noise of the party bothered me. I think they were surprised when I said that the sound of so many people talking was more of a background "white noise" to me, similar to the continuous soft roar of a HVAC (heating, ventilation, air-conditioning) system. Even when I tried to demonstrate to someone the type of sound that does bother me by drumming my fingernails on a table, the sound of the party drowned out the "tack-tack-tacking" noise. I could barely hear it.
Misophonia-wise, it was a pretty status-quo week for me other than this evening being our office's holiday party for our clients. A couple of people at the festivities who knew about my misophonia asked me if the noise of the party bothered me. I think they were surprised when I said that the sound of so many people talking was more of a background "white noise" to me, similar to the continuous soft roar of a HVAC (heating, ventilation, air-conditioning) system. Even when I tried to demonstrate to someone the type of sound that does bother me by drumming my fingernails on a table, the sound of the party drowned out the "tack-tack-tacking" noise. I could barely hear it.
My grad school's studio (Photo from http://journal.barrocal.pt/) Thinking about the buzz of people talking at the party drowning out potential triggers just made me realize that perhaps one of the reasons why I might not have noticed as many triggers during my late grad school years is because the studio space where everyone worked was always busy with students 24/7. The open space was always filled with energy, and the dull drone of noise by more than a hundred students working, talking, scribbling and creating in the same four-story open space filled the air... There was no carpeting or soft materials to dampen the sound. In fact, it wouldn't surprise me if the architectural design of the facility enhanced sound transmission throughout the space. It was only when I was away from that busy activity and in smaller/quieter spaces, with only a couple of people around me, that I noticed trigger sounds bothering me.
I'm laughing to myself as I type this because I haven't thought about the energy of that studio space in a very long time. (I graduated from there almost twenty years ago!) Oh well... At least thinking about that fun time in my life keeps me from thinking about work crap (to put it mildly)... :-)
I'm laughing to myself as I type this because I haven't thought about the energy of that studio space in a very long time. (I graduated from there almost twenty years ago!) Oh well... At least thinking about that fun time in my life keeps me from thinking about work crap (to put it mildly)... :-)
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